“The realization that my art could serve as a catalyst for positive change, even if just in a small way, allowed me to find confidence and validation in my artistic endeavors.”- Interview with “draw me” Denis about self-acceptance, artistic expression and continuous improvement.
Who is Denis?
Hi there! My name is Denis, I am a queer artist born and raised in a small town in Russia, now I’m based in shanghai, China. Though my upbringing might seem at odds with my artistic expression, it has only fueled my desire to create bright, provocative, and explicit works. Living in Shanghai has provided a vibrant and diverse environment that continues to inspire and influence my work I started to draw about 4-5 years ago, scroll down to the very end of my Instagram feed and you will see what I started with. My style changed a lot since my first drawing, the only thing stayed the same – I still draw on my old iPhone 7 with a finger.
As with all artists, I imagine you had ups and downs in your ‘artist life’. What was the point, if any, when you realised that what you were doing was good?
Growing up in a traditional Russian Orthodox family as a queer certainly presented unique challenges and conflicts in my artistic journey. The clash between the vibrant and explicit nature of my art and the conservative values I was surrounded by created a constant tension within me. But amidst the ups and downs, there was a defining moment when I realized the value of what I was doing, despite any criticisms or doubts. This moment of realization arrived during an art exhibition where I showcased my work. As I nervously observed the reactions of viewers, I noticed something unexpected. Some individuals who shared similar backgrounds to mine, who also grew up in conservative households, approached me with genuine curiosity and appreciation for my art. They expressed how my work resonated with them, how it challenged their preconceived notions, and how it served as a source of inspiration and liberation. It struck me that my art had connected with others who might have harbored similar conflicts and suppressed identities, just as I had. In that moment, I realized that what I was doing was more than just self-expression; it had the power to touch hearts, provoke conversations, and even empower others. “Thank you I feel seen!” – I got a message like that quite a few
times in my DMs and that makes me believe that I’m doing the right thing! From that point on, I understood that the value of art transcends personal opinions and societal norms. It lies in its ability to evoke emotions, challenge perspectives, and provide a window into experiences that may differ from our own.
The realization that my art could serve as a catalyst for positive change, even if just in a small way, allowed me to find confidence and validation in my artistic endeavors. Of course, the journey of self-acceptance and artistic recognition is ongoing. There are still moments of doubt and insecurity, but that transformative experience ignited a fire in me to keep pushing boundaries, embracing my unique identity, and finding my artistic voice.
What/who inspires you?
My art is fueled by a deep desire for self-discovery, self-expression, and the exploration of my own identity as a queer individual. I draw inspiration from the struggles I have faced, the resilience I have developed, and the joy of embracing my true self. Color plays a significant role in my art. The vibrant hues I use represent my desire to break free from societal constraints while celebrating the beauty of diversity.
I find inspiration in artists, from great painters of the past to sex- workers and their OF pages, who have challenged societal norms and explored themes of self-acceptance, liberation, and personal truth. Literally from Tretyakov gallery (especially the collection of art of the 20th century) and Hermitage to Pornhub.
You work bright, strong and full of colours. What is the message or feeling you hope to convey through your images?
You know, in Russia winter lengths almost 8 months, it’s very sad – most of your life you live in one colored world – gray. I deeply believe that one of the reasons I’ve chosen this color pallet is the protest to that.
Moreover with vibrant colors and bold compositions, I aim to evoke passion, joy, and the celebration of individuality. By creating these visually striking images, I seek to inspire conversations, dismantle stereotypes, and promote acceptance, understanding, and love for diversity.
Your Instagram pictures are a good way to follow your artistic development. Do you feel like you are where you need to be or are you just getting there?
In terms of where I need to be, I believe that art is a continuous exploration of self-expression and pushing boundaries. I’m sure I haven’t reached a final destination in my artistic journey. I am in a constant state of growth and transformation, and as you noticed my Instagram feed reflects that, It serves as a reflection of my progress.
Your pictures are extremely overloaded with eroticism in many cases. If you have an erotic dream that hasn’t come true yet, what would it be?
First of all I must say, my sex life is not as exciting as sex life of the main characters of my works. When some of my works are autobiographical and based on my experiences, more often I use my art as a means to explore my fantasies and push boundaries.
Does art help you in other areas of your life?
I find that art serves as both a form of self-expression and a means of liberation. While my works may be quite provocative, they allow me to explore and embrace my identity in ways that may not be accepted or understood within my family, my country or community.
Art helps me immensely in other areas of my life. Firstly, it provides me with a channel to express my emotions, thoughts, and experiences that I may not feel comfortable sharing openly with those around me. Creating vibrant and explicit artwork enables me to communicate my personal journey as a queer individual in a society that often stigmatizes or dismisses such identities. Moreover, art empowers me to challenge societal norms and expectations. Within the confines of my family’s traditional background, being open about my queer identity can be daunting and even dangerous. However, through my artwork, I can subtly convey my message and beliefs, initiating conversations and breaking barriers in ways that may be more approachable and less confrontational. Art also serves as a form of therapy for me. It allows me to process and cope with the struggles and isolation I may face due to the clash between my identity and my family’s beliefs. Through artistic creation, I find solace, comfort, and a space where I can fully embrace and celebrate my true self. In addition to personal benefits, art has the potential to inspire and connect with others who may be experiencing similar struggles or questioning societal norms. By boldly expressing my queer identity through my art, I contribute to a larger movement of representation, acceptance, and understanding.
In art what do you think it takes to succeed recently?
In my opinion, success in art is about being true to oneself. To succeed, it is essential for artists to remain authentic and express their unique perspectives and experiences. You always have to be unapologetically yourself! Furthermore, I believe success in art also lies in pushing the boundaries of what is considered “acceptable” or “traditional.” Society is constantly evolving, and with it, our understanding and appreciation of art. By daring to explore new themes, challenge norms, and provoke thought, artists can capture the attention and interest of viewers in this ever-changing landscape. Additionally, success is often aided by actively participating and engaging with the art community. Networking, attending exhibitions, and connecting with other artists can provide valuable opportunities for exposure, collaboration, and growth. Building a strong support network within the art community can be crucial in helping an artist navigate the challenges of the industry.
Ultimately, success in art depends on a combination of factors, including talent, originality, resilience, and adaptability. However, once again, being unapologetically true to oneself and creating work that resonates with others is at the core of achieving success as an artist.
What do you do when you have time for yourself?
I’d love it to be a huge paragraph of me spending every second of my free time taking care of my well-being, reflecting myself and or finding solace in tranquil environments, but the reality is a way simpler. If you don’t see me drawing (which is rare) you probably will see me in a gym, suffering but going there regularly, you also might see me in some authentic restaurants with nice food or bars with good margaritas or Negronis. I’m also trying to visit all the possible art exhibitions, it’s very important for me to see what’s going on on the big art scene. Although most likely you will find me on my sofa reading a book or trying to understand the deep meanings of Tarkovsky’s movies or binge watching another season of the Real Housewives (sorry, that’s my ultimate guilty pleasure).
How do you imagine Denis living 5 years from now?
I envision myself being unapologetically happy. I’ll get there, I’m sure. What this happiness is going to be based on? This is another question and I will answer it in 5 years.
Please finish the sentences:
Surprise me with: a nice date
I won’t go out without: my watch (but I’ll be late anyway, sorry)
This turns me on: freedom of mind
Artworks by Denis @drawmedenis / society6.com/drawmedenis
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